Love sick poem Monday not smiling Tuesday sad Wednesday depressed Thursday unable to sleep Friday with panda eyes Saturday feeling suicidal Sunday happy okay i know that is kinda lame just had to put it on cause was bored,no worries what the hell am i talking about?! Yea maybe its just because I'm lovesick that's all. |
Random stuff.....
Your cheerfulness keeps me going
The dim moonlight My only guide
Poems
The sun now setting
The snow now melting
Gods creations now running and i no longer wandering
No more sun
No more warmth
No more light
And i more upset
Feeling torn inside
I start running first slow,then fast
Unable to take it
I drop to the ground
My knees now scraped
Crying and bleeding
i struggle to get up
But no sign of you yet
The winds now blowing
The blizzards coming
So cold and dark
I close my eyes and let it take me
As silence overcomes.
| Blood drips down my throat Onto my head and then down I'm struggling in the water My breath cut short Feeling the pressure pull me down I'm not breathing now My vision is blurring My lungs are now full of water I close my eyes and let it take me It feels so good to be dead. I'm torn inside Not feeling good Feeling so weary unable to describe how I feel. Sitting by the fire Staring into space I let my mind wonder About all the things you said.. I lock myself inside the room Not ever wishing to appear again Until the day you've come to me Ill never see the light again. Each day in life is a 100 yrs Each year in life like a million years Longing for you to be in me I shut the door and disappear. Saddest of all souls is the essence of parting. All the feelings in my heart All the thoughts engraved in my head No matter how hard you try You'll never be able to make me forget it again. Blood is red,but rated eight. All the feelings in my heart All the thoughts engraved in my head No matter how hard you try You'll never be able to make me forget it again. Blood drips down my throat Onto my head and then down I'm struggling in the water My breath cut short Feeling the pressure pull me down I'm not breathing now My vision is blurring My lungs are now full of water I close my eyes and let it take me It feels so good to be dead. I'm torn inside Not feeling good Feeling so weary unable to describe how i feel Sitting by the fire Staring into space I let my mind wonder About all the things you said. I'm dying inside My insides are bleeding Its hurting so badly i wish it never happened. My bloods solid My hearts not moving The blood vessels bursting,it hurts me like hell Why did you leave me? Why wont you come now? Why must you leave? You know how much this hurts me? I don't think you do. Right now its raining and my blood is dripping The sound of the wind beating like the sound of my heart I stare out of the window and keep wishing I would see the person I hoping to see. I sit down at the table feeling depressed I haven't seen you for ages and I'm missing you like hell Would you come on now? Would you realize how much I'm missing you? I hope you do cause its torturous not loving you. I sit by the fire I stare deep into it no matter how bright it is Not enuf to hurt me yet If only you would understand |
This was on photobucket,yea he has photobucket.
Wow is this hot or not my friends said it wasn't hot well i think it is but CA said it was hot i think Ive got weird taste but nvm I cant believe I'm in love with him,yes he is my friend and I'm in love with a guy who has black hair and red streaks?Okay he looks gangster like and all but hes not and hes 15 god damn it what do you want me to do I'm in love with a guy who has hair like that,that's so wrong.... Stella youre gonna be mad at me and tinhk Im a poseur or smt but Ive just realized Im only a little emo,suicidal and dark,thatz me and I like him. I dont care if you hate it. |
| Okay I'm back anyways I don't wish to elaborate on details or anything Ill just make it short and sweet.How that sound? Short and sweet.well anyways I just and finally at long last completed my hw and then tonight got LOST good gonna watch and guess what today bf wanted to break up and well he was 2-timing man and of course naturally break up of course and then yea I'm still heartbroken but that's life ain't it yao kan kai yi dian so yea apart from that everything was fine and yea.... still thinking of what to write oh yea while i was surfing the Internet i happened to chance upon a interesting conv. happening between girl and boy i think. It read:"why wont you love me?""Cause I'm his gf""But he and u are miles apart while I'm here where you live wouldn't u rather talk to me?"" But i love him" ... it was quite interesting I was wondering online relationships?Seriously if you ask me online relationships are ridiculous it may be some 34 yr old u're talking too eek so sick and yuck phido.... well anyways yea online relationships are like miles apart if you can love each other then 50% chance but why bother about online stuff when there are boys and girls around you? really weird i guess humans are like that and today my friend was like i wanna be emo and i was like 0.0 hello I'm a living example of an emo and was like trying to stop him he was like blah blah i think he wants to be emo cause his gf is emo weird well love is a wonderful thing and i don't think you can force love can you if it did that'll be good and bad? i just got some smoke boxes or metal casings to put cigarettes in em but i do not smoke and don't wanna smoke not my idea of fun but trying it I'm not sure hehe okay usually I'm not like this i don't talk so much but i guess i just did today hahahz okay gtg liao eat dinnner.byez...XD |
Me and ZaZa waiting for bus to come in school Denise and Rachel gone back home already. =]Hey guys back lol i sound so !? so anyways today we got off school early cause they were celebrating the national day thingy so i got off at 10 isn't that good so i go home and do hw then have tuition later then do hw till 3am then sleep then tomorrow wake at 10 then eat little bit then go out buy stuff and go home take a shower then go for my aunts barbecue to celebrate national day. I'm going to get my grandma smt while out tomorrow and helping Denise to do smt hehe yup that's my plans and today was the eve b4 national day and then Friday will be holiday then Saturday and Sunday then next day got composition its no problem but worried about the hao zi and Ci and all the phrases go memorise later hehe yay my mum let me go to LA with zaza and Denise when we are 19 to pursue our dreams for me to study movie directing zaza to study music and Denise to study acting haha we dream too much but i will make It come true even if it doesn't i will try my best too so will post when come back tomorrow and I'm counting down with Esther and Denise tonight at 12 am hahaz watch the Japanese show yay i cant wait to suddenly life doesn't seem so dark anymore it seems brighter yay yay and my band idk now got smt to resolve with it better not think too much waste time see ya guys tonight bye..XD |
| Hey back guys,so anyway,i created a myspace .So welcome to......... http://www.myspace.com/xcutxwristsx and.... www.vempirefreaks.com/xcutxwrsitsx and... hehe funny this! lolz okay seriously i tinhk I'm lame so just had my oral today.According to what i heard,the Chinese teachers all pi ping all of us everyone she was like ni ying gai jia zhe ge jia na ge man like shit like that so yea it went quite smooth for me. Rachel and I while were waiting for our parents we took pictures haha i like to take pictures of random stuff maybe i might add a few pixxies! So I'll post it on later and then um mm whats it ah i forgot oh yea! I don't wanna go to school on National Day celebrations too lazy hehe, but got no reason sux. On National day itself I'm going to watch a horror show sweet! then go to Raffles City and get the wallet Ive been looking forward to get.Ive liked it for 1 week already and get the book i want Then after that go home,shower and I'm off to my Aunts house for some barbecue thing bring some extra money along and since there wont be school for 2 days plus my mum still hasn't give me $5 yet I'm gonna ask her for $15 hehe taking money and well yea gotta start revising my work and finish my compo i love writing I'm gonna be a movie director when i grow up yay and marry a Caucasian he he I'm dreaming too much but they say you must have a vision then you will idk don't care got to do hw now.Next post will be when Ive gotten the pictures. =] |
| I'm back today was a typical crap day for me. since its a Sunday i had fucking tuition and boy i got a surprise the friend who Ive known for 2 yrs was all black today i was quite short okay maybe its because hes usually not like that hes a very nice guy but wow i got a shock of my life.then later at raffles city we had lunch at some sandwich BAR THINGY i ate snails that escargots thing or whatsoever yea and can vegan's eat snails??? haha idk but i don't care i just ate it.Then next i went to this very or more like a idk?.I'm not one to use that kinda stuff but i got it cause it was just so kawaii!!!! okay whatever then after that we went scouting around raffles city has changed they got so much new stuff i saw this wallet IT WAS REALLY NICE I WANTED TO GET IT BUT MY parents said it was too ex you call a $35 bucks wallet ex??? idk so i started whining and i can get it next week!! yay I'm so bad its white and black and really nice he he so I'm quite Happy i m gonna watch a movie and get a book on national day and my wallet next week sweet i love myself but I'm still pissed thanks to my sister f I'm not gonna say anything about it long story bye gotta study now. still pissed. |
| DEAD DEAD DEAD I FEEL SO DEAD NOW I FEEL LIKE DYING NOW i hate my life i hate everything i hate all !!!!!!dead dead dead dead dead dead dead dead dead dead dead its filling up in my head!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
| hey all just scribbling nothing to say actually I'm not gonna talk to Stella to a couple of yrs i must do that I'm too soft she ran me down not as in physical but another way I'm so pissed at her i disbanded the band good next time i have my own band I'm gonna have it with a different type of ppl I know I'm acting thick skinned here but i don't care this is my blog i do whatever i want with it no one can stop me not even cc.Yes I'm still pissed.Stella fine i guess I'm not suppose Io be so gullible and believe good friends are really that good they back stab you i don't like them this has caused me to be like that so not optimistic and idk emo?? Its tortuous i think ? So yea idk Eliza and rachel idk lah they all ah very siao Ca doesn't like me sure of that after all she and Stella one group wan (i hate singlish but still gonna use it here though) D hasn't been on for some time i miss talking to him hahaz so yea I'm gonna stay late again tonight study and what would wear on a barbecue? I'm still thinking/since its freaking national day I'm going for this celebration thing what should i hm idk well please msg me and well yea i just got a text sweet byez. =] |
Okay first i think there's smt wrong with me i haven't posted in like a week i think and now I'm posting non stop i guess its just fun hehe well anyways what do ppl out here think this picture is and who's picture is it? To all my friends if you do,tell m In school and Stella i don't care if you're gonna kill me or not cause I'm emo.Cant change that fact. The person is actually the person who posted this post.Surprising ain't it doesn't look like one bit like me.Well it is. |
Panic! At The Disco I'm obsessed with this band,more obsessed with It than MCR or anything..OMG! Ryan Ross looks so hot! Stella says he looks like shit but nvm i don't really care cause personally i think Gerway looks quite okay.he he if Stella hears this shes gonna kill me in school and Ryan Ross is only 21 this year.That's freaking young.I guess that's good? They're so young yet so famous already.I'm not like other ppl i don't like Brenden Urie i prefer Ryan Ross hot hot hot yea i think I'm obsessed with him o.o So yea anyways hot hot hot It rocks my socks okay i think I'm over exaggerating i haven't had any crush already for 2 months and now i like Ryan Ross usually if i liked a person ill only like him for a while but i like Ryan hes hot ha ha and um nothing else but I'm gonna post lots of pictures of panic! at the disco and him he he i might even decide to change my skin to Ryan Ross haha lolz... |